More About That Letter

This came from a poetry class I taught years ago in prison. I assigned different students to lead the class discussion of different poets in our anthology. One was Diane Wakoski, and one of her poems was this:

Justice Is Reason Enough

He, who once was my brother, is dead by his own hand.
Even now, years later, I see his thin form lying on the sand
where the sheltered sea washes against those cliffs
he chose to die from. Mother took me back there every
day for over a year and asked me, in her whining way, why it
had to happen
over and over again—until I wanted
never to hear of David any more. How
could I tell her of his dream about the gull beating its
wings
effortlessly together until they drew blood?
Would it explain anything, and how can I tell
anyone here about the great form and its beating wings.
How it
swoops down and covers me, and the dark tension leaves
me with blood on my mouth and thighs. But it was that
dream,
you must know, that brought my tight, sullen little
brother to my room that night and pushed his whole
taut body
right over mine until I yielded, and together we yielded
to the dark tension.
Over a thousand passing years, I will never forget
him, who was my brother, who is dead. Mother asked
me why
every day for a year; and I told her justice. Justice is
reason enough for anything ugly. It balances the beauty
in the world.

The guy who had been given the assignment said, "This broad is crazy - and if she ever wrote me, I wouldn't even write her back."

it occurred to me that this was prison, and there wasn't much outside stimulation, crazy or otherwise, that wouldn't get a response. But there was something about his formulation that got to me, and I said,

"Are you sure? You get a letter from someone you haven't heard from in a long time - 'Dear Ken, I have to talk to someone about this, and you're the only one I can turn to. My brother....' Sure she's crazy -- grief and stress have driven her around the bend. But she's reaching out to you. Are you sure you wouldn't write her back?"

His face was very serious now. "Yes, of course I'd write her back."

Well, a poem is a letter to someone we don't know. But we want them to write us back -- to be moved enough that we've established a connection. And we can't count on friendship, or prior emotional ties, to get them to read our letter and write back. We can count to some small degree on the story being good enough. But mostly we have to draw them in by writing it well enough.

Some Winter Shots

Not much winter, so far. No snow, and not cold weather till mid-January. But winter mornings can yield their own pleasures, especially if you're lucky enough to catch the dawn just coloring the mountain behind Opus 40:

New Semester, First Exercise

I generally start out my semester in Creative Writing with the following exercise.

You're writing a letter to someone -- it doesn't matter who -- someone of your choosing, real or imagined. It's someone you have not communicated with in a while, and you have to fill this person in on what's been happening in your life. And what's been happening is not good. You have a twin -- probably of the opposite sex, but that's your choice, too. About a year ago, your twin committed suicide by jumping off a cliff. It's been a terrible shock, but you're trying to put it behind you and get on with your life.

But your mother can't do it. She can't put it behind her. She keeps taking you up to the cliff, over and over, and asking, "Why did this have to happen?"

The worst part of it is, you know something that she doesn't, that might explain why it happened. Three days before the suicide, your twin came into your room at night, and had sex with you.

You're sure it happened. But you're a little foggy beyond that -- maybe you were dreaming, maybe your consciousness was a little off. Perhaps you don't know for sure whether you were forced, or a willing participant.

OK, write the letter. You can leave when you turn it in, we'll talk about it next time.

That's all I tell them. So that's all I'll write here, for now.

Winter Visitor

For four days this week, we had a guinea fowl take up residence on our deck. Certainly not a wild fowl -- they aren't exactly indigenous -- and much too willing to make himself at home. We fed him birdseed, and finally we called our friend and neighbor, local farmer John Wrolsen, who came and took it -- it will bunk with his birds until he finds its real home.

Anyway, here's the little feller, with Opus 40 in the background: